We sat on the rocks and absorbed the warm October sun, low in the roiling sky. A five minute walk from the cottage and we’re at the point where the river Spey joins the sea.
Strange optical effects made the water seem higher than the bank, diamonds of light glittered on the water… whirlpools bubbled at our feet. The sky and water became indistinguishable… It was the afternoon before we took the sacrament and it was already magickal.
We bathed in water infused with rock salt, frankincense and lavender and did our preliminary rites. I did a Lesser Banishing Pentagram Ritual and Middle Pillar while we sat in the East room which was set up with an altar, fruit and flowers, crystals, wand, ankh and two cups of mushroom tea. Jill ‘Opened the Ways’ and brought in our pantheon of gods, guides and cosmic energies, we finished with both of us doing ‘The Lotus Wand’ chanting “Tho-sis” at every chakra, tuning in using sound. The room shone in pink, purples and reds, petals scattered on the floor, sandalwood and patchouli incense and warm candlelight gave the ‘temple’ an otherworldly feel before the psilocybin took effect.
We took the liquid, sweetened with honey and waited. The thing about mushrooms is you don’t really know how it’s going to go, it’s never like you plan or expect. We’d decided to return to the river and gaze at the stars which are amazing up there (Moray, Scotland), no artificial light pollution… but that’s not how it went at all.
I came on quickly, about 20 mins after our brew. Outlines blurred and morphed, Jill looked like she had been pixelated but something seemed… not wrong but strange, an unfamiliar energy. When i closed my eyes i didn’t see the usual ordered geometric patterns but wild tangled strings of candy pink and black… i felt an alien, kinda insectoid or, now i think, it was more like a starfish, with tiny sharp teeth. I often get entities, probing for weaknesses when i take off and it takes a while to focus and get rid of them. Jill didn’t think she was tripping yet. I had done a word spell in the afternoon to use to try to get answers from the mushroom spirit but of course that’s not how it works, they dictate the agenda.
Within fifteen minutes or so Jill retired to her room, she was ‘going inside’, wrapped up in blankets, eyes shut.
Wave after wave hit me. I stoked up the old iron stove in the North room facing the sea, i gazed into the fire and saw glittering white light like we’d seen dancing on the water earlier. I felt the presence of the old cottage and thanked it, I was too restless to close my eyes as the dose was not quite high enough for a DMT like intensity so i just let my mind go with it… The iron stove and poker and the way i seemed to be unable to move from the fire got me thinking i had to keep the fire burning through the trip. I had to ‘hold space’ for Jill, who was in the West bedroom. She was Hel and Freya and i was a viking stoking the fire to light her way through the underworld in her role as a Pyschopomp. I was Thor and Odin gazing into the flames.The gates of the stove became the gates of Hel. I put a block of wood into the flame and as i stared at it i began to see what looked like runes or ogham script… in a Harry Potter moment the letters changed to english “You Can’t Read Me’ it said. It was a wonderful night, and a very strange night. I eventually managed to get one of two cold Budweiser beers in the fridge after four hours and gradually sunk back into my body, down enough to have a check in on Jill and have a sane conversation. We headed to bed tired and everything still unprocessed. I’m remembering more little details but other peoples trips are a bit like other peoples dreams, interesting to only the dreamer… I think it takes months for some plant teachings become accessable. I also believe it can be a healing and cleansing agent, like getting your brain cleaned from the inside…
I could go on but this isn’t really about my trip but the amazing base we have for future Workings. T.H.O.T.H. has been on the back burner as i adjusted to a new, demanding job but those four nights at Ocean Star were so energizing. Being so close to nature, the elementals, the huge sky, the visibility of the stars, Jill’s cottage is yet another confirmation we’re still on the path and working with her as a Priestess of Thosis is still far more powerful then anything i accomplish alone. Our relationship is platonic but the male/female energetic hook up is very effective for us.
We have a lot of new members and we hope that some of you will work with us on various experiments. Anyone unfamiliar with our ‘Astral Temple’ should check out posts on this blog and also Jill’s ‘What Dreams May Come’ on WordPress. We’ll definitely be doing a synchronized attempt at the Winter Solstice but it can be very difficult to arrange with members all over the world, nevertheless we’ll keep trying…
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