Magick Mushrooms & Mantids…

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I had approximately 4-5 grams of dried psilocybin (magic mushrooms), after deciding that i could do with a bit of a magickal reconnection i decided that today, 8th of March, felt right. I’d had a bit of a tough winter to be honest and had let my daily praxis grid to a halt… with the love & and support of my closest friends- (my best friend Jill had had a fantastic experience a few days previously)- i decided, with due respect, and some healthy trepidation, to go for the large dose.

I prepared fastidiously, cleaning and tidying, mopping and dusting and generally giving my studio/temple a good spring clean. i have a circle permanently painted on my floorboards and set altars in each cardinal direction, using the layout described in previous ‘Thosis’ ritual posts. I checked my almanac and saw that The Moon would be 93% full, The Sun was in Aquarius (my sun sign) and sunset would come at 5.55 local time. All good!

I fasted, didn’t take my prescribed painkillers and spent the day mentally preparing for what i hoped would be a positive, transformative experience. I had my first ‘awakening’ as a teenager on shrooms and consider myself a fairly experienced user. They are not to be messed with, not at this dose, but i couldn’t wait to get started. Previously my big trips had been outside, in nature but this was really a ‘vision quest’ so i followed the standard advice for such an experience and, after doing a thorough and prolonged ‘purification and consecration’ of my sacred space with salt water and incense, performed a traditional Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram and Middle Pillar. I solemnly invoked Thoth, Isis, Horus and Hathor, my HGA Belaroth and every guide and allie i could remember. I drank the concentrated ‘brew’ with a spoonful of honey, smothered the inside of the circle with comfortable cushions and warm blankets and meditated, waiting…

i didn’t have to wait long… within 30 minutes i was coming up heavily, the candles glowed and the air shimmered with beautiful translucent colours, i could see flashes of light, blue at the edges of my open eyes and empty space took on the quality of a cubist painting, divided into pentagrams and hexagrams. i was frankly surprised at the intensity of the experience but closed my eyes and just let it happen. To my amazement the first thing i saw was what can only be described as a Gigeresque insectoid figure, it was clearly ‘mantoid’ in form, in all my years of psychedelic and ‘occult visionary work’ i’d never seen anything like this! i was thrown by this ugly looking creature and as i grappled with the shock i became aware of many other entities… i’d obviously strayed into the lower 5th dimension and was like a tourist in some ‘interzone’ marketplace. i was being harangued by ‘shells’ posing as gatekeepers, each one insisting i cut them a deal… it took a few seconds (time becomes very distorted), for me to realise i could easily be tricked into making a pact with one of these dodgy characters and had to assert my sovereignty right away. “I am Saroth the Magician and will make no pacts with any of you, begone!” i said out loud and accompanied my statement with a flourish of my ‘Thosis Wand’, I held my dagger in my left hand but didn’t need it, they dissolved back to wherever they’d come from. The mantid remained. My intuition told me that it could not harm me, didn’t want to… there was some kind of telepathic exchange and it used my name, Saroth, and politely asked if it could ‘observe’, i saw no reason to deny it so i consented, it turned so i could see its profile and upper body and saw it was wearing a sky blue cloak!

It’s hard to convey just how… multidimensional strong trips can be. I could get small breaks by opening my eyes, my circle had become a kind of glass dome/tent/pyramid! Several layers or timelines were happening simultaneously. I closed my eyes again for ’round two’ all the time energy/information was pouring into my crown chakra, every form of magickal symbol was being ‘downloaded’ and i felt intense physical pressure, like i was being buffeted by an astral hurricane. The idea came to me that i had to endure several important initiations all at once, to catch up with my co-thothers, because while they’d been working hard, i’d been slacking… The next entity i encountered was far more formidable and she was seriously pissed off!

It was a huge, female hooded cobra, again she looked very like an H.R. Giger artwork, with a female, almost humanoid face.
“How dare you call yourself ‘Holy Serpent’!” she hissed. “You have to earn that title!”. This was Mama Snake and she lambasted me for my pretentious choice of latin moniker. I was still feeling safe from any real danger but knew i had to remain in the consecrated circle. She was not some demonic force trying to hurt me, she was my mother giving me a scolding, call it tough love! i was thrown about a bit and seemed to be being pushed further and further into the core of consciousness itself. I presume she gave me some kinda initiation as well for i was eventually told (non-verbally) that i was, indeed, part of the Serpent Clan, or bloodline, which came from Cain, the product of ‘Eve’ and ‘The Light Bearer’, the biblical story has been deliberately distorted to make the Serpent Race seem eve-ill, but we are really directly opposed to the ‘Reptilian’ forces of blood sacrifice and control. Now, i know this is all rather far out! I am generally rather skeptical about all this. But, whether this was a metaphor or an allegory for some more abstract ‘truth’ i do not know, i’m just telling it like it was…

My wise and dear friend had told me to cross the Abyss, when he knew i was going to do this ‘quest’ and because it was so unlike any experience i’d ever had, i began to think that this was what i was doing… several times up to this point i had to verbally give permission for various stages of whatever the hell was happening! I opened my eyes and saw my room transformed into a wondrous palace of light, i was completely ‘in the NOW’ and i again spoke out loud “Yes, i want to cross the Abyss”. i was too high to feel fear but started to call in Thoth, Isis, Horus, Hekate and… Sekhmet.
The ancient Lion Goddess of Khem seemed to open another doorway and I saw another ‘group’, The Lion People! again they were humanoid but had flat leonine features, very like the beings from the film Avataar (which i haven’t seen) but they weren’t blue they were… lion coloured. The word Alliance came into my mind, which became ‘a-lion-ess’. I perceived that these beings were powerful, beneficent allies of the Serpent Clan… my friends face appeared, it was like he was talking to me in real time. It seemed he’s established some kind of permanent enclave in this dimension. He was like “Dude, i told ya!” and i laughed with joy at the hyper-weirdness of it all, and yes, i think i DID cross the Abyss! I really cannot describe this bit, it has to be experienced… And there is an aspect of it which i am not permitted to talk of. Not because i’m some shit hot adept, but it was part of the deal, you’re not allowed to spoil the ‘secret’ of what this entails because it would be like telling you then ending of an amazing mystery film you were about to watch!

Please don’t think i’m making claims to any kind of hierarchical grade. i’m totally against withholding information that can help people EVOLVE, do the magick with an open mind and sincerity and take the sacrament! It’s our birthrite! Ok, at this point i’m about halfway through the trip. In Part Two, things get plain ridiculous… throw in Freemasonry, Saint John the Lennon. Yoko Ono, Johnny Depp and Baphomet add some real time telepathy and a great deal of LOVE and there you have it! This post is already too long so i’ll stop there…

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The Truth is Stranger Than You Ever Imagined and No Two People Will Experience IT in the Same Way

The Super Psychedelic Genius Club…
From the very start of the trip i’d been seeing and feeling very heavy ‘Baphometic vibes’, the aloe vera plant on my main altar took on the aspect of the famous Eliphas Levi drawing and even a cup of incense sticks had parted into a V shape. The fabric of space itself, when i opened my eyes was made of interlocking hexagrams and pentagrams… I even felt i was sitting in the Baphomet position, back straight, legs crossed in some hyper dimension. The further in time i move from the experience, (two days), the harder it is to resolve into any kind of linear narrative but it was definitely after the mantid and serpent experiences that i moved into a new phase of the ‘initiation’. I saw myself as the blonde, curly haired child i’d been before puberty and i seemed to be ascending some kind of elevator, i was ‘told’ i was a 33rd (333rd?) Freemason, and was having strange titles and ‘honours’ bestowed on me from silent voices. I was Christ & Lucifer and had to verbally accept this burden! I saw a man’s face, very 1940’s, who may have been my paternal grandfather, a lifelong Mason, or another man who was connected to my mother, for anyone who’s interested, his name was Professor R.V. Jones, and i’ve always felt that he had something to do with my link to magick… anyway, it was all getting confusing and i felt like i was being stretched and compressed, dismembered and reassembled.

At this point i became aware that i’d left the radio on a very low volume, i hadn’t even noticed before but i now heard the voice of a DJ echoing with a kind of delay effect, like the signal was coming from outer space. i heard him introduce the ‘featured album’ of the night… it seemed to fade in and out of earshot but when he named Yoko Ono and John Lennon, the volume seemed to rise and the music came through, clear as crystal. Lennon was playing wonderful, sizzling, bluesy licks and Yoko was making weird but beautiful vocalizations. She kept vibrating over and over “It’s Alllllright, it’s allllllright” and it WAS! i felt they were playing just for me! they’d been where i was now and were ‘birthing’ me through’ it… i scrambled over to the radio (keeping my feet in the circle) and turned the volume up, my god, it was the most amazing music i’d ever heard! it was around now that the idea of the Psychedelic Super Genius Club came to me. i was, thanks to this musical gateway entering a far lighter, more playful part of the experience. it was all something to do with archetypes, and the Baphometic current was somehow intertwined with rock n’roll… for some reason Johnny Depp entered my mind. The two Johns, Saint Lennon the Baggist and Depp were part of a club, who had reached the level of ‘Masters’ of this particular area of the Astral Plane. i began to take on the character of Capt, Jack Sparrow!, every song on the show (called the Freak Zone) was talking directly to me, guiding me…

I decided i wanted to speak to Johnny and sent out a request… i got an answer “Sorry, Johnny’s not high right now!” Hahahahaha! this was FUNNY! things were still super-intense, everytime i shut my eyes i’d be surfing waves of pure energy/information but i was more in control now. I was opening my mouth wide as huge yawns rippled through me, and, as i did occult symbols poured out of me. The whole room took on the aspect of a glittering palace of light and i could see golden threads attached to the floorboards and reaching diagonally to infinity. Another Yoko song and BOOM! i was blasted again… it was around this time that my dear friend, the one who’d told me to cross the abyss appeared in a bluish bubble at my right shoulder. he was bearded and infinitely wise, in fact he was Moses! So he was part of the club as well! pieces of the puzzle were clicking into place. Serpent Clan, the Cain bloodline, Magick, Rock n’Roll, it all meant something…

My friend and co-founder of the group, Jill’s face appeared at my left side. She was there but not actively participating. When i think about it, she was in the Chesed/Jupiter position while my ‘Moses’ friend was assisting me from Binah/Saturn. It’s entirely possible that the whole trip was a journey up the kabbalistic Tree of Life…

I was still incredibly out of it, sitting in my consecrated circle, in darkness but for the candles set in each direction. I’d taken my laptop in with me and was curious to see how things would look from wherever i was. I opened the notebook and clicked on the T.H.O.T.H. page, i couldn’t focus but a member had just posted a double infinity, very Celtic looking symbol, i recognized it at once as a serpentine ‘Snake Clan’ sign…

I almost posted to the group telling everyone they were super evolved ‘funk beings’ from another dimension but thought better of it! I sent a message to my friend who i’d been in psychic communion with, i was definitely coming down a bit now, i couldn’t have typed anything half an hour ago.
he advised me to do a ritual, i sat for a while longer. my body was aching all over. There was so much that can never be described… and even the memories of it are fading as i try to remember. It was horrifying and beautiful, transcendent and transmogrifying… after perhaps another hour of slowly winding down i felt like it was time to anchor the whole experience with another banishing and a whole lot of thanks to the mushrooms, the gods… it all poured out, although i felt bruised and battered i also felt tremendously empowered… I hobbled to the bathroom and saw that the marbled pattern was still very 3D but the storm had passed. I wish i could remember more, but that, for now, will have to do…11136757_10203951861105603_1329445592928898525_n

Ahista Tah! Saroth ;))

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